Let it be known: I am the worst blogger in existence and very behind on posts. I just made a word document (complete with highlighting and all sorts) listing every shoot I should have blogged about in the last year and there is one for every day of the summer holidays so keep your eyes peeled.
In the last year a lot has happened. I moved back down to Cardiff in Wales from Newcastle in North East England, started supply teaching again and essentially have had to re-brand and start from scratch with my photography. No earth shattering tragedy prompted my moving, it was simply time to move on go where the work is so to speak.
Enough about me anyway I’m sure you’d like to see some lovely pretty pictures? Well then Dr Charis recommends pretty pre-raphaelite pictures as a cure for this rainy and gloomy Monday (Isn’t it supposed to be July??)
Model: Sophie Natrass
Make up and hair: Emma Louise Hair and Make up Artistry
Flowers by The Floral Quarter Newcastle
Veil and crown by Kathryn Russell
Back in March I shot some new pieces for Legend Bridal. Instead of doing my usual pretty outside pictures I wanted to do full length, slightly high fashion bridal using lots of contrast and shadows. I hired Mayfield studio for this as I wanted them to be just perfect and my home studio is a little bit small for full length.
Models: Sophie and Sarah
Make up: Victoria Holdstock
Hair: Emma Louise
Designer: Legend Bridal
Assistant: Christine Patterson
For more of my work and prices check my website
Way back last December (I know I’m so behind updating) I shot for the Designer OneofOne. I absolutely fell in love with her work and so rather shyly asked if I could borrow some pieces. Several weeks later I got a very exciting parcel. Unfortunately December is pretty awful to shoot in. I had hoped for snow so we could make it an alternative Bridal type shoot. As luck wouldn’t have it it didn’t snow but it was rather sunny for the 5 hours of daylight we got to shoot in. The poor model was very brave and resilient considering the bitter cold- my fingers were pretty numb trying to change settings on the camera. At the time we didn’t have transport and we’d all got the bus up to Consett to the Make Up Artist’s house to shoot around there. So we pretty much just shot in a clump of trees and buses off a road. Alas when you’re you’re poor and can’t drive you don’t get many choices in the matter, however it’s a true measure of gumption if you can make pretty pictures in the most barren of places.
Make up: Kitty Kerry
Hair: Anthony Simpson
More on my website
Back in cold unforgiving January, I got the chance to photograph my friend Toni and her boyfriend Dom. They are such a lovely couple and bless them very happy to be my guinea pigs for my website couple shoot. Now i have done lots of couple shoots very very seldom get to publish them as i respect my clients privacy so I got Toni and Dom to fill in the gaps by posing. Kitty Kerry did the make up for Toni.
I actually loved shooting on a crisp winter’s day as you got the lowers sunlight and the crazy colours left over from Autumn.
Recently I did a maternity shoot for the fabulous Laura of Wholeheartedly Healthy and her husband James. It was a lovely relaxed early evening shoot in Saltwell Park. The sun was beating down on us even though it was still late in the day and we got some great photos.
Wishing Laura and James all the best for their little bundle due in September.
So on the 31st July I will turn 30 years old. It’s one of those ‘landmarks’ like New Years eve, graduation ETC that is doomed to be an anti-climax. I don’t expect to wake up on a Thursday morning and suddenly have become Yoda or Mr Myagi, nor do I expect to suddenly have it altogether and be ready for whatever adulthood has to throw at me.
When I was fifteen and at school we had these records of achievement to fill in and mine still haunts me. I had stated that I expected to be an artist and freelance writer by the time I was 25 and would have paid off all my student loans. Now I’ll be honest, when you’re fifteen you don’t really know what or who you’re going to be. Most of that form was dictated by my father, who I assumed knew what he was talking about and mostly for that reason I always worry that I’ve failed in his expectations. That of course is ridiculous, my dad couldn’t be more proud of me even if I’m struggling along, however still that early expectation of myself irks me. I suppose if I met my fifteen year old self now she would probably think a) I got a bit fat b) I get to be a photographer, that is beyond cool and c) why don’t you have a cat?
‘Way back when’ I would not have been able to have predicted the 2008 financial crisis, the digital revolution, the impact of the internet and my lack of self-esteem. It does no good though to grumble about what-might-have-been while wearing Tailspin pyjamas and cradling a cup of lady grey tea as if it was a precious kitten. I can only dedicate a sigh or two towards it every now and then and press forward. It might be that on my facebook feed everyone is flashing their brilliant lives filled with wealth and family and I feel a bit left behind but I know that (without even a trace of irony) everyone has a different story and all the extra pressure I put on myself or that I perceive from others does no good.
So for all my whinging (hey give me a break turning 30 is a big deal) I have things to be proud of and memories to cherish. I have amazing stories and have seen some amazing things. Throughout all the time I was a teacher I always knew that any difference I made to a child’s life, whether it was giving them praise, supporting them or giving a bit extra of my free time to listen to what they had to say, was worth my existence. I may not be a rich woman or still be able to do a handstand press up but what I have given and what I have yet to give is worth more than any bullion.
In my 30 years I have: Got a degree, got a post grad qualification, been a model, been an artist, been a teacher, taught myself gymnastics, guitar, painting, learnt ancient Greek, moved around the UK, been a good Aunt to my niece, nephew and god-children, helped old ladies across the road, volunteered at animal shelters and bought cups of tea for homeless people. Now I am a freelance photographer with friends all over the world, I’m in a wonderful relationship and I can fry eggs with frightening accuracy. What’s not to be thankful for.
What we don’t credit in people, which we should, is how we cope with break ups, losing jobs, depression, illness, relocation, bad hair days, loss and grief. I like to think that if any one of my friends or family, no matter how long it’s been since last we spoke, I will be there to support and cheer them. Unless the Vampire diaries is on. Then you’re on your own guys soz.
So I leave you with my favorite images from that last 30 years and if you feel a bit generous feel free to peruse my Wishlist
My brother and I
My first art exhibition aged 15
Halloween 2008/9 (image by Owain Richards)
A level results day with Beth and Katie
Mum, Brother and me
On the catwalk at London Alternative Fashion week and my photo in the guardian newspaper
My beautiful perfect goddaughter
About to go on a road trip with my band probably in 2006
My friend Jordan and I graduation at Aberystwyth in 2005
Me in Budapest. Wearing pyjamas apparently
Backpacking in Romania (Brasov) with Angie
Left: Headstand in the Gower 2008 Right: Lake Ontario beach 2014
Photo by Dan Pearson 2009
Photo by Michael Wilce 2007
Left: Kingston lock, ontario 2014 Right: My nephew and I at Bellsay hall 2012
My mum and I 2014
Gregg and I Amsterdam 2013
My brother and I 2014
My nephew, myself, my niece 2014
Gregg and I Amsterdam 2013 the second time
Sorry for the poor quality and for some of my fashion/eyeshadow choices.